you will never understand

I dont fully think you understand what you have done to me. You dragged me from my home ditched me and fucked my future roommate. Its extremely hard for me to forgive but I did and the very next fuckn weekend you came back to my town and completely and utterly fuckn ignored me like i wasnt worth fuckn shit. fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. I am devistated and scarred. you got out of this a fuckn girlfriend I lost my best friend. I trusted you with everything and told you so much about myself. It kills me how little you care. I hate myself because of how much a fool i was to allow myself to get so close to you. I have never been so beatn down in my life and i honsetly dont kno if i will ever fully recover. I hope you're happy you have completely destroyed my every being. never in my life have i been so scared of my thoughts and actions and it is all your fault. I hope you're happy.